Classes have started.Its been alright so far.have to get used to studying all over again.As much as this place doesnt feel unfamiliar because I have been here a few times,its still with a bit of unease that i walk the streets.

Many think that being overseas is glamourous,is the thing.Many think the being overseas is an incredible experience.It is exciting no doubt.But as I have found out,the grass is always greener on the other side.It is with much discomfort that I start and carve out a new life for myself here.There are just so many things to balance and one has to work extra hard to prove himself in a place where fish&chips are better than sweet and sour fish.As much as we would like to think that everyone is friendly and welcoming,it somehow becomes clear that it isnt really the case.

Being away from what is familiar,being away from friends.You learn how to treasure what you had.Friends,familiarity,comfortable routines.I realised what friendship means and the value of it.How disappointing some friends can be and what true friends really are.Its sad to see how some people just want to just disappear from your life.Its fine really.I have accepted it as life.You try and maintain friendships,but you cant help friends coming and going.Just treasure the present,hope for the future and dont expect.

We are all at the stage of carving out a future for ourselves.I am in Aust now.Soon Sean will leave for Brisbane,dave,bert and tris will leave for US and UK respectively.Who are we going to leave behind in our pursuit of stability and the high life.

so...i got some form of connection at home and its such an incredible relieve you wont know.since everyone has been waiting will upload some pictures.


so in true tim chek fashion.i decided to take a picture of my messed up new haircut.it was horrible.and in true fashion,i decided to give the smouldering look.I know how much this would tickle the guys pink.haha.so its for you merry man!miss u guys!



Port Noarlunga.Amazing place where we went for dinner with Uncle Harlan,his wife,Julia and Ben and their friend from Japan Toru.Thai food.Nice.but nothing like Thai food from Paddy Fields or Bangkok.But it was a good dinner.Julia and Ben are great people.Ben is so passionate about God and it kinda put me to shame.but i realy admired how he spoke to Toru abt God and stuff.Amazing.

Day 3 of school.Got my timetable.Its really starting to remind me a lot about JC days.Schools gonna be quite hectic.Todays the first day I wore my uniform.And it looks like I cant keep long shaggy hair.I gotta cut it.Damn!And cutting hair here is not the cheapest thing in the world.I gotta start searching for a good and cheap stylist.not an easy task.ugh.School requires me to have neat hair.Above the collar.

Still using the internet cafe.Gonna be using it for a very long time.I probably wont get my internet up till end of this mth or early next mth.sigh.

Its been a while.Things have been rather hectic.Trying to get my household stuff and make sure the apartment looks a bit more homely.

So i cried when I had to walk through the gate.I thought I was all right.But looking at the box the guys,serene and rachel gave me,with all the photos inside.I became a mess.I knew how much I would be missing them.Looking at the notes,I remembered why we were such good friends for so long after all.Still miss them a hell lot.

I have my very own duck now.Duck with the bobbing head.Supposedly part of the drivers club now.I love the not so little card by Bernie,Jac and Sam.Although i am quite sure that jac did the card and the other 2 wrote the notes.I think I am right.The duck is now sitting proudly on my table.

Schools been alright.I got my uniform today.Snazzy outfit for school.haha.Met a few accquaintances.Still miss all the friends back home a hell lot.I dont think I will ever stop missing them.I just have to try not to think about it that much.

Home has no internet connection.So I am using an internet cafe.Its quite frustrating cos I need to go through so many things to get it set up and its gonna take a while.bah!

I miss everyone back home.even those overseas.catch up soon.

its way too fast.i am feeling very unprepared for this.it was a good week.a week of catching up.i am quite tired honestly.so many photos to upload.kinda lazy.

bag is all packed.just have some last mintue items left.for those who are interested.i depart at 1945hrs.Flying Qantas.its no turning back now.

I have never believed that anyone could be a constant in my life.No friend,no lover,no partner.To the extent that I am skeptical that even family members can be a constant in my life.Because of that,I have almost always never allowed anyone to get too close to me.As I always felt the need to protect myself and my interest.By allowing this wall to come up around me as this fortress of protection,it has in the process caused a rift between me and those around me.I dont let myself loose as easily as I would like to or as much as friends would like me to.I have hardened myself in the process.lately I wonder if I am hurting myself even more.

Last weekend in Singapore

Saturday dinner at my house.

time to catch up with everyone at the same time cos this week is so damn packed.i hope i survive the week.thanks to all those who came.really glad that could catch up.

sunday in church.lunch with cherie tan at Sun&Moon.

damn good food.jap yakitori dinner with friends and dessert at BK.haha.pie.

family dinner on Fri.honestly,my family has way too much drama.i think its gotta do with the fact that its mostly female hormones.check out the caricature they got for me as a farewell gift.its damn cute.haha.shall bring it and put it somewhere.i know it doesnt exactly resemble me but they took it from a photo in which i wasnt wearing my glasses.they took it from grandma's birthday pictures just recently.still like it all the same.

the pictures are finally up.oh yeah.

should go check out The Pump Room.

nice ambience and the foods not too bad.

but company is everything.dinner with bernie,jac and sam.

company is always good.

there is just so many things going on the past few days.its the whole leaving to study that is affecting me a bit more than i ever realise.i feel like i need a breather.and i dont know why i even bother to try.to try so hard to organise so many things.and end up feeling disappointed.

Dinner last night with Bern,Jac and Sam at The Pump Room at Clarke Quay.Food was not too bad.I liked the sauteed mushrooms with garlic and herbs and my burger was nice.except a tad bit small.haha.Company was always good.Pity blogger is screwed up.Cant upload my pictures.When I can,I will.

everythings been moving so fast the past week.and somehow,i am glad for the past few days where i was just able to laze around at home and not do anything.it gave me time to think,get myself in order.and to actually start packing.

i have not thought about what to expect for the year ahead.somehow,i stopped expecting,stopped dreaming.last week caleb asked me what my dreams were.i told him i had none.sounds sad,especially when i used to believe that without dreams,you are just an empty shell.up to a certain point,i stopped dreaming and stopped hoping.somehow,dreams started to seem to fluffy.dreams started to be a nice term for lofty aspirations that i prob would never be able to reach.i do dream a little sometimes,like how in 15 years time,i would be running a chain of hotels.but i never focus on them.its more of a passing thought.

someone was talking to me about how she was afraid for her last semester as a student.how she was not getting the courses she wanted.instinctively,i wanted to say you will do well,dont worry.but i held back.its not that she would not.i am sure she would.i believe so.it just felt like saying that would have been so cliche and it would not have put her at ease anyway.

yesterday i was thinking.thinking about the year ahead,starting afresh overseas.in a place so familiar yet unknown.honestly,i am afraid.i am scared.i feel so small just thinking about it.i have been trying to psych myself and tell myself that its going to be a great experience.i realised,i have to stop thinking.stop having expectations of what is going to happen,stop trying to predict the future for myself.and just hope for the best and expect the worst.when i am at that point where things do not seem to work out for me,to just trudge on.i know,there will definitely be points where i will want to give up.but i have to just trudge on.and when its time to reflect,what didnt seem right,suddenly fits into the picture perfectly.

pictures from grandma's birthday.other cousins have other pictures.there was supposed to be a theme.so i was supposed to look a bit hip hop.just that u cant really see the bling bling which i got. granny has the tiara which we sneakily put on her.

I know this is damn late.almost a week late.from new year where we all designed out own t-shirts.check out davids six pack.

anyway,its countdown to leaving.never expected things to move so quickly.its still rather overwhelming.so i finally got my packing list out...

1. t-shirts
2. work shirts
3. pants
4. jackets
5. unmentionables & socks
6. gym attire(i dont intend to look like a pork bun)
7. detergent
8. slippers
9. shoes
10. toiletries(knowing me this is a rather large item)
11. towels
12. stationary
13. kitchen equipment
14. bedsheets,pillowcases,blanket

if it doesnt look a lot to you,it does to me.

so...i finally got the pictures up from the party.as usual with the girls there will always be scrambling for photo moments.

we all crammed into jassyB's car where i was squishing cherie toh in the ribs,to get a bit of late night action at eunos.was a good night.thanks joy boo for organising.

the holiday season is mostly over and i am caught the bug.my throat hurts and that sucks.really could do without falling ill especially now.

New Years Eve was a blast.of course with a little episode.something i wished never occurred but sometimes one has to draw the line and let others know where the limit is.some part of me wishes i could have done it some other way.a better way.but there are somethings that no matter how you try and put it can never be pleasant.

I am thankful for my friends who were accomodating and who had already decided that nothing and no one should spoil the last new year that we would spend together as a group.

NYE was spent at Tris hse and zouk.Velvet was incredible fun.We went in t-shirts that we had drawn ourselves.I dont remember having so much fun.Got back home incredibly late.

New Years day dinner at Joy boo's house.had a good time.as always.pictures will come up later.i gotta find a way to upload the whole episode of val's pebbleish buah keluak nut.haha.

and now i am falling sick.sleep is in order...

The year has come and gone just like that.everyone is doing their own reflections.its the right time for me to do mine.to have a sense of closure to the year that has just passed.

2006 was a rather good year.I got the chance to travel a fair bit.I started getting used to the whole military lifestyle,made good friends and I guess i learned a lot in the process.Army I would say was not a completely redundant experience.While it was not discipline I had to learn,it was learning how to push myself further than what I feel that I can achieve.

Work at the hotel,while frustrating at the beginning,taught me much.It taught me what not to do,showed me that there was still very much about the industry that I would have to learn and made me desire to want to know more.

I finally passed my driving.after a really long time,something I thought I would never be able to do.my friends didnt think so either.they think i am quite a hazard on the road.I say I did have a bit of help.Divine help.I really did think that I was going to fail and I was estatic to know that I passed.

This year has also made me realise how much more I need to grow up.It has made me realise that I have to stop making the same mistakes again and to start making new ones and learning from them.I always thought that I would live with whatever decisions I make and not regret.as much as I would like to,there are times,where I still regret.I still believe in having no regrets,but I now believe that with every decision that I make,there is always this area where I can consider if I have made a better decision.

When I look back at the year,I realise I have really been very fortunate and very blessed.Blessed with friends who genuinely care.Friends who go the extra mile.Friends who are forgiving and accept you for who you are.Friends whom you know you would have a good time with regardless.

Year 2007.Whatever it brings,ready or not,I will take it as it comes.School starts in 3 weeks time and I am nervous as hell.I am trying not to think about it.New environment,new lifestyle.back to school and time to hit the books.my brain is still rusty.I am excited about what I am gonna be learning.2007.here I come.its time to find a girlfriend.

The party was a blast.cooking was stressful.kept telling myself i had dug my own grave by deciding to cook.it all ended up good.thanks everyone for coming and for the little presents and bottles of wine.