Its been an interesting day today.Starting from a splitting headache to an aching body. Finally got down to registering for my driving today at bukit batok driving centre.It seems like a really long process before I can finally get my licence.Although I was told that most people get the licence within 6mths.

Met Joel in town to walk about.We did a bit of shopping.Bought my birthday present.A pair of haviannas and my brother's birthday present.A rather cool t-shirt from inQbox at far east.A shop with a very interesting concept.Entrepreneurship in the making.Met damn a lot of people in town today.Mostly all the SISPEC people who finished their 1st term in BSLC.

Headed down to holland V for dinner.After dinner,joel,david and I were sitting around at Gelare when this lady approached us to help them in their surprise plan.We were supposed to give a bouquet to the birthday girl who was carrying balloons.Somehow,I ended up being the one to do it.It was really weird.When I handed her the bouquet,she looked stunned.She was with her boyfriend by the way.For a moment my heart stopped,when I handed her the bouquet.Had no idea what to say.But I do think I did sound unfriendly.haha.Shit.But it was weird.It was a pretty cool surprise party.They had other people along the stretch to give her flowers and this guy to play on the guitar for her.I am pretty sure they must have made her day.

Colin&Sab

all the ladies in tow

Ashley

ARTs Fac REUNION

The masks we wear hides us and protects us from the harsh realities of life and from other people's judgement.These masks hides us real self.The part of our self that we think is ugly to people.We would be kidding ourselves if we all think that our closest friends are the most transparent.The whole irony is that the closer we get to someone the more we hide ourselves from them because we dont want the people we care about or love to see the side of us we dont like.

But how long are we going to keep up with this appearances.Honestly,its tiring to keep wearing the masks that we wear.In some instances,to keep up the appearance that we are actually stronger than we appear to be.To make up for our short comings and supposedly beautify our flaws.Its tiring to keep up the appearances to keep acting in our very own show.Then again,we are so afraid to remove the mask because it means that we become vulnerable.And after all,its all that we have known for so long.

The first step is the hardest.The giant leap of faith and sometimes, the greatest critics of oneself is us itself.Its all part of a journey of self-discovery and acceptance that can be both scary and liberating.All depends on which path we choose.It all sounds rather zen.But I have been thinking about it and it all makes sense.

MEMORIES OF YESTERYEAR

There comes a time,where we all have to say goodbye to what is familiar, to all that we knew...

Something i heard from Desperate Housewives and it struck a chord in me. Been feeling so messed up that I just have no idea how to clear the skeletons in my closet.I have changed.I am not the guy you used to know.Somehow,some days I just feel so dark inside.

Becky and I were talking about moving on and I realised that I am so scared of moving on.Because moving on makes me feel so alone.The friends I had the time of my life with in JC are like familiar stangers to me now.Its just a paradox because I know them so well,yet when I see them I dont know what to say.Hanging with the gang sometimes tires me out a great deal.Sometimes,I feel so invisble around them and it is damn hard to discuss something serious with them.Its like they avoid it all together.I just want to run away from them,from the family from everything that I knew.I want to run away from having to get used to a new familiarity.I just feel everything that I held to dear to me slipping away from me.Everything about me just feels so messed up.

I decided that its time for me to clean up all the mess of the past few months.Yet,deciding how to clean the mess up makes me confused and its a damn hard decision.For once in my life,making a decision is not as simple as deciding what to have for lunch.It not only concerns my happiness but my future.Worst of all is that I dont know whether I will ever be happy.Maybe being happy is not the key to being successful in life.But its all about contentment.At this point,my whole life consists of confusion and uncertainty. Simplicity of life is not something that I can enjoy anymore.

The girls are goin over to Brisbane to see Chia tmr.Really wish I could go with them and everyday,I just cant stop obssesing over how fun it would be and how relaxing it would be to just be away from all the chaos.Honestly,ladies,I am really envious of you girls cos I know how much fun it can be to travel with your close friends.Maybe cos i had my chance last yr with the guys,I wont have it this time.But the feeling sucks.But...hope you girls really enjoy your trip and bond even more.And to Chia,sometimes,I really think you are wise beyond your age.Somehow,though you may think that you are not yet mature enough in the choices you make,I think your maturity lies in your ability to help the friends around you.

To david.Thanks.You know I really do appreciate it.Sometimes,I overlook the fact that you guys wanna try and loosen me up more.Its not that you guys dont listen when you crack your stupid jokes.But its to help ease all the tension.