Christmas is over.Christmas day at least.I am still open to presents.To one and all Merry Christmas.To those overseas Ash,Charm,Martin,Ben,Mel and my dear Joy Boo.Hope you had a great Christmas and spent it in a meaningful and memorable way.

I am sort of basking in the afterglow of Christmas.I cant ask for too much and I should be very grateful with how I got to spend christmas this year.Like I said,it was something old,something new and one that I should be very grateful for.Being able to spend time with family and friends.

I was just thinking today of how we often happen to bump into people or strike up a conversation making an acquaintance in the process or even having a friendship,but then somehow,sometimes we dont ever get to see these people again and never get to contact.Its weird how we encounter these people but never get to have a meaningful relationship with them.Or even friends from a long time ago that you just never contact anymore.Sometimes I wonder.If you wanna look for these people,how vast the whole world is.Millions of people.Looking for that person would be looking for a needle in the haystack.Yet the irony of it all is that we always like to say what a small world when we bump into someone,somewhere along the road.Like the guy Joel,Tris and I made friends with at the club last night.Most prob wont ever see him again or like the jap couple my family kept running into at Cairns.I guess there r so many people in the world that not everyone who comes into our lives one way or another has to stay there.

This Christmas has been a somewhat quieter christmas.It came and went like the wind and honestly maybe its because I am getting older but christmas doesnt seem so sentimental to me anymore.It is still special though.This year was different.A bit different.As usual,had mom's birthday celebration on the eve.Went to a damn nice jap restaurant as a change instead of western food and inflated prices.The different part this year was doin the countdown to christmas at Cherie toh's hse.It was a nice change to see her family stay up till 12 and open their presents.haha.Its my first time at her annual christmas get together.Just spent time talking and catching up.It was good to see all of them after a long while.

Christmas in church was somewhat nostalgic.The same old familiar thing every year.I never tire of hearing how christmas is about a baby born in a manger.Seeing the younger kids exchange presents brought back memories of how I used to spend so much time writing cards and making presents of the whole world.As I grew older,the circle of close friends grew smaller and I didnt have so much effort.Thinking about it,I almost wanted to not write cards this year.But decided against it.

Watched Family Stone with Joel and Serene after service.It was a damn messy movie,where there are so many subtle hints to the plot that you dont know where the story is going.It was supposed to be a story surrounding relationships and christmas but I guess the writer sort of lost focus with the plot.Spent the night having dinner with the family and then went down to Zouk with the guys.Met this british guy from Leeds who is like travelling around the world,backpacking with friends.Supposedly our age.Quite cool talking to him and like finding out what makes our 2 cultures diff.

Its been a good christmas nonetheless,one spent with family and friends.Something old,yet something new.It came and went too fast.Cant wait for next christmas!

WorryWort

The past week was a rather incredible week.3G dinner,hanging out with the council pple after,Joel and Sean's commissioning,zoukout,hanging out in town with friends.I had fun.Lots of it and I gotta say I am damn proud of Joel and Sean for having had to go through so much shit.Of course not forgetting my other dear officer friends.

I have kinda fallen from that high today.It kinda hit me that while I am looking forward to enjoying myself,reality is gonna hit me head on once the enjoyment is over.Things arent gonna be great in time to come.You might think that having a friend as your officer is something damn cool.It is.Kind of.But I would rather not have it this way.I am worried about the friendship,worried about how when we discuss things we might never see things eye to eye.Worried about whether we will be mature enough to step away from our work and be honest friends with each other.With very different schedules,I worry that the group will be meeting less often as a group.I was kind of excited that the year was gonna be over,but it feels like even with this shitty year is coming to a close,I might be in for another rollercoaster next year.I wanna feel like things are ok,go through it like I ought to.But i just feel this sense of dread.Maybe certain things are self prophesying and I should stop thinking to much lest it comes through but take this as they come.But you know me.I think too much,too far and sometimes way too hard.And whenever I feel that its the weight of the world on my shoulders,I realise on hindsight its the weight of my worries.

3G dinner last night was great fun.I had almost forgotten what it was like to be part of a council again and I have really missed being in council and school.I always saw council as an escape for me from school,somewhere to immerse myself in when I didnt want to have to study.It made me feel like I belonged to the school and most of all I enjoyed the tight bonds that we had within the council and with the teachers.Last night the council said goodbye to Mr Sim and Miss Tang.After all this time I still remember how great it was and I believe still is to work with the 2 of them,Miss yong included.It was great to be able to spend time together and catch up with one another over dinner in school and just enjoy each others company.I dont really remember laughing so much over the past few months.For me,going back to school will always hold great memories.