HAPPY 20TH DAVID KWOK!

-a few hrs early but still happy birthday!

footprints in the sand.

Whenever I see footprints at a beach,I am always reminded of this poem about a man having a conversation with God.The man asks God why there are only one set of footprints in the sand especially in times when he has need God the most.Gods reply to the man was that He(God) was there all the time.God was carrying the man through his hardest times.The footprints in the sand were Gods and not the man.

He who we take for granted,He who we always forget is always there.I am no saint.Defenitely far from a good believer of the faith.But I try, and God knows the many times I have fallen and how many times I will keep falling.I admit to having my doubts about God and stuggling with my faith,reconciling my faith with who and what I am.But when I see the footprints in the sand,I know He holds my hand.

I often wonder how many times we want to take back the things we have said.To undo the things we have done.To be able to go back in time and do after all over again,this time the right way.

I wish I could.To be able to see where I went wrong.To make right whatever I did wrong.To be able to appreciate what I took for granted.Wishing so hard probably wont get me anywhere.

Lately,I feel like I dont fit in anywhere.I feel so displaced.People are going to tell me otherwise.Part of me knows that I am just being paranoid.Despite all of that,I still have this constant conflict.I know its not fair to the people who love me for who I am.I try not to say anything about it and I feel like it is so hard to find someone to talk to and who actually understands what I am saying when I dont even understand myself.All my quirks and irrational thoughts and behaviour.Sometimes,I think normal and sane are not in my dictionary.

Its time once again to dream of lazy days,to feel the wind cool the drops of sweat on your back.

Time is passing rather fast.Much faster than I expected.Its a good thing.Not really complaining.I have been packing so many things into my days and weeks I have not really had time to take a real breather.

I had time to slow down and think the other day.There are days when I just feel like the worlds biggest loser.The other day was just one of those days.I was getting tired of feeling like that and I realised that I had to give up trying to please others and trying to be what others want me to be.Its been really tiring to try and fit it,regardless the group of friends,whether its the regular group of buddies,or my camp friends.Its sometimes disappointing to feel like they cant accept you for who you are.But I shall stop trying and make please myself instead.As cliche was this may sound,true friends are the ones who can accept you for who you are.They are the ones who listen to what you say no matter how stupid you sound.They are the ones who are willing to go the extra mile for you.Sounds too perfect.But when you find friends like that,you do all you can to make the friendship last.

Thought number 2.Happiness should come from within and not your given circumstance.Its probably something I should have realised a long time ago.Happiness cant be brought by others.Its up to us to determine if we want to be happy or depressed.

Its been a rather tiring few weeks and I am really getting quite tired of everything.I should probably take time to really slow down.

the samui 7:Bert,Serene,Ian,Rach,david,joel and me

Its been a week since I left for Koh Samui with the group.I had a blast.Food there was incredible and not very expensive too.Drinks were really cheap and I truly enjoyed sitting outside the house every morning with a bottle of soya bean milk, just listening to the waves and looking at the ocean. One week on, I am still wishing I was back there.You cant blame me.

Koh Samui was really incredible and its really just a great place to unwind.I wouldnt say that this trip was relaxing.We packed in a lot of things into our trip so that we could maximise it.We had great fun just running about Koh Samui and it was great to have been able to do so much stuff.

road side food stalls:beef noodles and banana pancakes.

look out point at koh Samui

main:duck confit with foie gras on a peach

dessert:apple tart drizzled with honey,

served with dark chocolate

ice cream.

Bro's chocolate torte with homemade rum&raisin ice cream

had my birthday dinner at Vis-a-Vis.Food there was incredible and very satisfying.I had the 'Pork belly with apple and mango sald' for my appetiser.It was amazing.really enjoyed the dinner this year although I think it cost dad a bomb.

council people outside far east shopping centre

damn gay picture

Pictures from council dinner about a week ago are finally up. It was Martin's last night before he left for Manila.Service at the restaurant was terrible and I honestly doubt I would ever want to go back there again.I had fun nonetheless with the group of them.