Went out with the guys today to watch Elizabethtown.Joel wanted to watch it.I didnt quite get what the show was about with a down and out guy.The shows morbid moments were covered with a bit of dark humor and it seemed a bit irreverent especially when death was concerned.Although if you look at it the other way,it was more of a celebration of life at times of the person they loved very much.

Of course I do kind of see how it was more of insecurities,about male machoism and how Orlando Bloom's character could not get into a relationship because he thought he was a failure,and he could face no girl as a failure.Although at first I thought he was just jaded.Still trying to get what the movie is exactly about.There was something in the show that struck me though.That sadness is surrender,accepting defeat to your circumstances.Why not try something else,some other emotion.Wallow in your misery for a mere 5 mins and then move on.Thats what I wanna do.

Lately,my insecurities have been getting the better of me and sometimes I feel that the more I think,the more my mind is in a mess and that one fine day its just gonna explode.I have just been feeling like I have lost myself.I dont know who I am anymore.Hanging out with my group of friends is fun(and I know David reads this) but sometimes I just feel so much like an outsider and I dont know how or what to say sometimes.Everyone is having so much fun sometimes making jokes and laughing about stuff but I sit there and wonder why I am not laughing.I have to hide some things from them lest they say anything cos sometimes I feel like its judgement.Maybe I am too sensitive and thats the problem.I am too sensitive.Sometimes,I am kinda at a loss.And I should just stop thinking cos I think too much.