When I rarely get the chance to,I will sit down on the couch and watch cable and let the day go by.One of the shows I love to watch on discovery channel and living is the show "faking it".For those who dont know,its a show where a person tries to be someone else by immersing himself or herself in another profession and lifestyle foreign to him or her.
The recent episode that was aired was about this female computer engineer who was faking it to be a catwalk model.She was obviously not ugly and after her makeover was in fact stunning to say the least and she was tall.Being thrown in a world where looking good is a job,she started doubting herself and became very self concious despite the many reassurances that she was great and that she had what it takes.While insecurities are normal,she allowed her to consume her and while she had become more confident later on in the show,there was still a lot of apprehension and incertainty.
Watching the show made me wonder how hard is it for us to be able to love the person we see in the mirror.To be able to look at the person in the mirror and say "this is what I am made of and I am damn proud of it".In all honesty,I was not one who was able to say that and I dont think I can do that yet.Insecurities and low self esteem has always been part of my life since young.I had always felt like I was short.Well...it is a fact that I am short.But the person in the mirror was short,nerdy and chubby from too much supper.Even now,I cringe at the many double chins when I look at my old photos.The insecurity more often than not got the better of me when I looked around and felt that that there were so many better looking people than me.I was wanted to strive to look better,lose weight,grow taller.And as superficial as this may sound,looking good made me feel good.It was very hard for me to really love myself and even now,its still a bit hard.But I have accepted that fact that I am short and self depreciating humor is sometimes the best therapy.Learning to laugh at myself was the best thing.
I know that for many,learning to be comfortable with themselves and loving themselves is a greater challenge that it sounds.But I know for one,that insecurity destroys not just you but the people around you and relationships with friends.Everyone should learn to embrace who they are and love themselves, be it falling in love with the love handles or the 6 pack.Cos if we cant love ourselves,no one can.
The recent episode that was aired was about this female computer engineer who was faking it to be a catwalk model.She was obviously not ugly and after her makeover was in fact stunning to say the least and she was tall.Being thrown in a world where looking good is a job,she started doubting herself and became very self concious despite the many reassurances that she was great and that she had what it takes.While insecurities are normal,she allowed her to consume her and while she had become more confident later on in the show,there was still a lot of apprehension and incertainty.
Watching the show made me wonder how hard is it for us to be able to love the person we see in the mirror.To be able to look at the person in the mirror and say "this is what I am made of and I am damn proud of it".In all honesty,I was not one who was able to say that and I dont think I can do that yet.Insecurities and low self esteem has always been part of my life since young.I had always felt like I was short.Well...it is a fact that I am short.But the person in the mirror was short,nerdy and chubby from too much supper.Even now,I cringe at the many double chins when I look at my old photos.The insecurity more often than not got the better of me when I looked around and felt that that there were so many better looking people than me.I was wanted to strive to look better,lose weight,grow taller.And as superficial as this may sound,looking good made me feel good.It was very hard for me to really love myself and even now,its still a bit hard.But I have accepted that fact that I am short and self depreciating humor is sometimes the best therapy.Learning to laugh at myself was the best thing.
I know that for many,learning to be comfortable with themselves and loving themselves is a greater challenge that it sounds.But I know for one,that insecurity destroys not just you but the people around you and relationships with friends.Everyone should learn to embrace who they are and love themselves, be it falling in love with the love handles or the 6 pack.Cos if we cant love ourselves,no one can.
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