I know you think I am a nut case now.But looking back at some photos I took,I realise that I really miss christmas.And I am really really looking forward to that Christmas period again where I dont need to worry about a thing.Maybe I am having too high hopes for christmas this year.But all I know is that once christmas is here,I am one step closer to bliss and one step further from the mess in my life that I never ever ever want to look back on.I want my christmas.